"Ah the night...here it comes again"
It's on with the jeans, the jacket and the shirt
How'd I end up feeling so bad
For such a little girl
And I hold you close in the back of my mind
Feels so good but damn it makes me hurt
And I'm too scared to know to how I feel about you now
La Cienega just smiles..."see ya around"
And I hold you close in the back of my mind
And raise my glass 'cause either way I'm dead
Neither of you really help me to sleep anymore
One breaks my body and the other breaks my soul
La Cienega just smiles as it waves goodbye
"Ah the night...here it comes again"
It's off with the jeans, the jacket and the shirt
How'd I end up feeling so bad
For such a little girl
And I hold you close in the back of my mind
Feels so good but damn it makes me hurt
And I'm too scared to know how I feel about you now
How I feel about you now
La Cienega just smiles and says, "I'll see you around""




i wonder how long it will take me this time to get back to "normal." I can't remember how long it took the last time, how many nights I could be completely fine until I heard a certain song and was in tears for hours, how many nights I slept on the couch in my living room because the bed didn't feel right. How many days it took just distracting myself from thinking about it until all the hurt went away. And I know the hurt eventually went away, I remember that. It must have because I went and did it all over again. And now I'm right back in that same place. Just worse this time. I hate myself for it. And I want to tattoo it on my skin, I want to never forget. I never want to feel this way again. I learned my lesson about love. I just want the hurt to go away now. I don't feel like this is a mistake I can handle making one more time in my life.